A Moment of Honesty

So, here we are. The first moment of many in my walk with the Lord. I wanted to start off the blog with a really high point. A moment full of victory, joy, and power. But instead, here I sit feeling rather, average.

In a real, honest, day in and day out journey with Jesus, there will always be highs and lows. And today is no exception. I always try to start the day with time in the Word and prayer, but this morning’s routine was cut short by pancakes and bacon with my husband. Not to say breakfast is more important than God, but life has a funny way of getting in the way when it comes to our plans.

After eating, I just didn’t have a lot of motivation. Maybe you have felt this way too. For me, I have a list of things in my head that would be grand ideas, if I could execute them. But all too often, I find myself falling short of these ideals. So instead, just a few hours before bed, I read another couple chapters in the book of Acts (I’ve been reading a chapter a day roughly).

I continue to learn about Paul’s journey as he travels all around preaching about Jesus and reaching opposition at every turn.

And although, God used Paul for incredible things including authoring many books of the New Testament, I can’t help but wonder:

Did Paul ever feel like I do now?

Average?

From my view 2,000 years later, I might speculate that Paul was being used in too great of a way to feel average. But, aren’t we all… just normal people? Very rarely, did God use the noble, well-to-do, “superior” people that we might expect him to.

Instead, he uses the shepherd, the tax collector, the beggar, the ordinary. And Paul didn’t exactly have a perfect track record.

I can certainly relate.

I haven’t been throwing Christians in jail, but I am no saint by any means. I am imperfect just as the next person. So maybe Paul wasn’t feeling average, or proud. Maybe he felt…

Unqualified.

And so again here we are. I know that God has a plan for my life and for yours as well. But maybe you aren’t feeling especially special right now like me. Well, I’m here to tell you:

A walk with Jesus is going to be messy.

There will be days when your smile can’t be wiped off your face and the joy of the Lord is oozing out of you. And there will be days when the most accomplished thing you do is brush your teeth.

We may live in a world of competition and keeping up “appearances”, but with God we don’t need to impress anyone. He takes us for what we are. All the good, bad, spectacular, and ordinary. So embrace it. Own it. Stop feeling sorry for all the things on your list that didn’t get done today.

Instead, just take the moment you have, that we all have… now. Use it to talk to the Lord and ask for help through every moment of ordinarity (Yes, I made that word up). Because the God of all creation is creative and powerful and good enough to make extraordinary things happen in ordinary moments. Just like this one.

Together, we will be sharing in the moments that make up my walk with Jesus, because I think it’s time someone knew the truth.

This is: The Honest Walk

Praying for you,

Jasmine